I'm over the hump. I'm still exhausted and overwhelmed, but I'm not wanting to crawl into a hole and give up.
Today was spent preparing my Affidavit in response to DH's. It's a HUGE task (made even huger without the diaries.. grrrr..) but my friend J helped me find a starting point and stuck around to help me clarify my thoughts and clearly articulate the truth as I know it.
I've just finished the 12 page Affidavit and am now about to start on the Response to his Application for Final Orders.
I'm seeing a lawyer on Wednesday (not sure if he's the right one for me, but if not I've still got time to see some other ones) and want to be uber-prepared. I simply do not have the funds to pay someone hundreds of bucks an hour to do the grunt work.
*sigh*
My getting over that initial melt down was hugely caused by your support. The kindness of strangers (all friends now) and friends has given light where there was none. If I'd done this without you, I would still be stuck. I'd still be "I can't talk about it"-ing and unable to accept support and kindness. You've helped me see that, tough as this will be, I'm truly not on my own.
Toto is still ill and at home. "She" is still in hospital and wondering why I'm not visiting her. The stars are still out of alignment for us, but now I know that they will find their way back to normal... eventually.
So, short and sweet for tonight... but filled with love and sincerity. And my heart-felt thanks.
Monday, November 24, 2008
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Darling, Fe, I am so very relieved you are over the hump, and keeping away from the hole! You have amazing strength, and the strength to battle this crap for yourself and your boys.
I am so glad you have J there helping you get prepared. She sounds like a real gem.
You could have done this without us, but haven't we just made it so much easier? And of course thats why we're here we care about you...
I hope Toto recovers quickly, and 'she' does too.
xxxx
So glad to hear you're over the hump. Whenever we can help you with any other humps, just let us know. :)
Good luck with all your paperwork. Good idea to do a lot of the prep before seeing the lawyer. It'll allow you to hit the ground running as well as saving some $.
xxxx
You are definitely not on your own!
I'm glad you got the affidavit done. It sounds like hard work.
I hope this all work out and the spos leaves you alone.
If only I had that law degree... I'll have to make do with tea and sympathy instead.
Hugs.
Firstly I hope Toto is on the mend and "she" gets over her hump too. So that you can cast these worries aside.
I read your posts and I honestly don't know what to say.I am relieved you have the IRL support of friends and the online community too.
I have no advice but I am thinking of you.
Your posts touched me, I am in awe of you for being so honest about your despair. I guess the first way to get help is ask for it and that's exactly what you did.
Just wanted you to know I'm sending you love and strength and understanding. There's nothing like getting it off your chest.
I hope this works out very quickly for You, Toto and Boo.
You sound like though the mountain before is insurmountable you are going to climb it step by step.
It's completely normal to reach a breaking point and when you do, to have the ability to remove yourself from "she" for a moment reclaim some time for yourself.
Sorry, I am only just catching up had a huge week last week.
Fe,
Whether you know it or not, I have been trying to keep up with your blog. It is not easy, not with anyone's blog. So when I do sit down to it, I try to read as much as I can. And given the fact that I'm not seeing so well these days, that takes its toll.
Anyway, I'm sorry I haven't been "right in there" but I simply cannot. I am completely out of my element, reading about your worries. I cannot tell you how much I worry about you and the boys over all of this. It is just not right! I have that stupid "run to Australia" feeling again, but this time I have no idea what I would do. (Plus, I can't see worth a damn so I might end up in New Zealand!)
I have no words of advice for you and no words of support that you haven't already heard. But please do know that I love you, I admire you and I pray for all of you. Even though I don't come here often, you are never far from my thoughts.
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Joan
Fe, what a time you are having.
I really don't know what I can say other than, my thoughts are with you and I hope you and all those around you, come through your dark times soon.
*Sending you hugs*
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